Have you ever been a broken heart before? For me, I have benn broken hearted many times, but in this time it's different. Because she is the one who gave me love, who made me know how was happy of love, who gave me the good memories, and she is the one who gave me the sadness in my life. So, life has to continue and I have to accept the truth today.
I don't know how to describe my pain now because her face and my happy day with her come to my head wherever I go and where we have ever been together. We have been in love for 1year 7months. You may think it's not long, but for me it's so valuable time and so long because at the moment I love her very much. We ever planed about our future together, but now everythings were destroyed. It's almost two weeks after she's gone, I understand her because she found a better one who's more perfect than me. Before we broke up she admited to me that the love she gave me almost finish, at that time I was so sad and we agree to separated for a while until we find out that what's really thing we want. Onenight, I found out that that my heart love only her and I called to her, but she seemed didn't love me anymore because she was with another guy. I was so shocked, everythings in my heart were destroyed, it was like the thunder strom came in to my heart. That feeling I didn't want to do anything, I just slept on the bed and look on the wall like absent-mind for 3 days until my mom called me. I didn't tell mom that I was sad, but she knew that something wrong with me because she's my mom then I confessed with mom that I was broken hearted. She encouraged me and give the good support words to me that "Nobody loves you but still me" in that time I stoped think about my pain for a while, and I realized that it's true the only one who's really loves me is my mom. After that day, I tried to spend my life as the same, but it was hard because I'm still thinking sometimes and I'm more stronger becuase I think that When I sad and alone, she doesn't care me and know about myself, she's may happy with him and that why I have to think,so I stop thinking to her when I'm thinking. I think I'm the man I have to be patient and strong to spend my life and why I have to let the girl who doesn't really love me to destroy my life. And now I'm not angry her because I think she has a good way and I wish her life have a good love with him because I'm a man enough to face with the truth.
Life is not waiting for the strom pass, but life is learning how to dance in the strom. And now I can live alone and decreasing thinking about her, I hope time can help me to be a new guy who can forget about the pain. Anyway, This valentine's day I will call my mom and say "I love you Mom" as I have done every year.
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